should be sleeping

Maybe what I wrote yesterday didn't make much sense, but I have been in a haze for most of the week due to a couple of reasons. First of all there is my grandma and her health, which I think that I have talked about enough for a while. I need to relax and remember that there is only so much that I can do. The second matter of concern would be my bank and my money, which was a problem of another sort, but just as troubling in its own way. Both of those things made it hard for me to concentrate on much of anything and writing about either of them or anything at all became even harder for me to do.

Health, family and money tend to be major issues in most peoples' lives and I am no exception.

Last week Friday a check of mine that I had written was posted for the wrong amount by my bank. To be more precise a two hundred dollar check was posted with an amount of two thousand three hundred dollars.

Well, as flattered as I am that they think that I can casually toss aside over two thousand dollars on a whim, I would would rather not do so. I could have done so many other things with that money before they finally returned it to me after I pointed out the error to them. Yes, I have that money back now, but the amount of incovenience and trouble that they caused me can never be forgotten.

I have yet to decide if I am going to change banks.


When I left campus yesterday I started to wonder why I was there. Yes, I was there for class, but sometimes when I look around I say to myself that I did all of this over a decade ago. Okay, I finished nine years ago, but I started over ten years ago. Now when I am there all of it seems so far away from me. I'm not there to party and most of the socializing that I do is limited. I mean what do I have in common with someone twenty-three years old and just about to graduate?

That feeling of uncertainty carried over into work and I wondered how the hell I managed to last over three years at the same job? Suddenly it started to feel as though I were wasting my life again. Sigh. Thankfully a coworker told me that I still have the rest of my life ahead of me. That goofy little cliche was enough to calm me slightly, but it doesn't always feel that way to me.


I was hoping to spend some quality time with Nicole, but that didn't happen. She looked good this morning, but was more stressed than usual. More often than not Thursdays are days where she has trouble sleeping. That wasn't the case this morning. She was in a hurry every time that I saw her and I don't know why. Maybe I'll find out more tonight.


Later in the morning Donna stopped by in my department and commented on the latest wallpaper on my computer. On the screen was a photo of Kate Winslet, who she didn't recognize at first. After I told her who she was looking at she seemed to approve. Personally I thought that the outfit that Donna was wearing was more questionable than what was on my screen. Women commenting on women.

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