The Concept of Us
The weekends have been hard on this journal lately and I am not sure if that pattern will change any time soon. I try to write on a daily basis and succeed for most of the week, but fail on the weekends. My only excuse is that sometimes I just don't seem to find the time. All that I can say is that I won't abandon this project. So bear with me.
Brenda and I have been spending more and more time together and I am amazed that we haven't killed one another yet. Conflict and misunderstanding are frequent visitors to the apartment. Why did I do this or why did she do that are common questions. Lately feelings have been hurt and a few heated discussions have taken place, but I doubt that anything in life is trouble free. As for the arguments they do seem to be more helpful than destructive.
The relationship is definitely stronger after we talk as opposed to when Tracy and I talked. There is growth and understanding. What was unsaid is in the open. Brenda and I really do seem to want the same thing. We want to be with each other and are willing to work with one another. Some of this must sound very trite, but its true.
The struggle for happiness might seem to be a selfish pursuit, but it is a common one. People everyday are searching for something or someone. This longing is universal and it even draws people together sometimes. Most of all I like to think that it is what makes people human.
People are fragile. Emotions are fragile. Life itself is fragile. I don't have any answers or solutions for people, but this is the way that I see it.
I am starting to feel postive again.