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a mild lecture Whenever people start to talk to me about their children I try to imagine myself in their place. At the moment I am unsure where I stand on whether or not I want to be a parent. When I was with Brenda I had said that thirty was a good age to settle down and start a family. Hopefully the days of partying and struggling for money are things of the past. Now I am wondering whether being a father is really for me. Is it something that I really want or could I live the rest of my life without passing on my genes? Actually there are any number of reasons that people have children. The biological one just came up first in my mind and it certainly isn't the most important. I'm not trying to create a minature version of me and that is not what a child is supposed to be. Besides one of me is enough. I have always thought that if I was a twin I would have strangled the other one at birth. All of this leads to the next question of when is a person truly ready to be a parent. Is there ever a right time? The answer is probably not. Then there is the saying that people need a license to drive, but not to reproduce. Okay. I stole the strangling twin idea from the final issues of Hellblazer done by Jamie Delano with art provided by Dave McKean. John Constantine is one of the best examples of the anti-hero that I have come across. Flashback to last night. My boss gave a small group lecture about the attendance of last Saturday. Only three people from a crew of eleven showed up for work. Yes, he said that he understood that it was the worst weather that we had had in nearly sixteen years, but he was hoping for some more effort on our part. None of us called in to say that we might try to come in late or maybe in the morning. He said that he felt hurt by our behavior and was disappointed. Sigh. Yes, I can see his point of view and I am sure that he had to say something, but I no longer put my life in jeopardy for a job. I am not eighteen. Besides I sacrificed a car for my last job and where did it get me. I kept this comment to myself though. I no longer feel a need to rock the boat. I also doubt that the problem will come up again.
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