Michelangelo sibyl from the Sistine Chapel

 

thirty days hath

As often as I say that I don't understand the appeal of the American dream, I seem to surround myself with examples of it all of the time. The topics at work before I left were losing one's wedding ring and forgetting anniversaries. To me an angry wife sounds much worse than an angry girlfriend, but I could be wrong. The best part is that I can laugh at all of it, since I'm not married or seeing anyone.

With the onset of the cooler weather, I seem to be able to focus better on things. After work this morning, I had one of the most productive days that I've had in weeks.

I keep telling myself that I should try to get a social life going again, but I can't seem to find the time to do it. Every time that I think about calling someone I end up doing something else. Maybe all of this sounds strange, but I am very used to doing things by myself that I have a hard time trying to coordinate things with other people. I've been that way ever since I got out of college. The social circle that I had for five years dissolved and I never got around to making a new one to replace it.

When I was in college I thought that I was fairly independent, but living by myself after I graduated made me even more independent. There wasn't any more arguing as to who owed what on the phone bill. No one else was around to misplace the heating bill in winter. There was no more of shifting cars in the driveway. All of the responsibility was mine and I liked it that way. Personally I think that everyone should live by themselves at least once in their life. I think that it makes a person stronger.

There are only a few days a month when I feel like doing something with someone else, because most of the time I get by just fine by myself. Of course drifting in and out of social circles does make it hard to find someone when I do want to do something as part of a group. Of course most of my year was spent doing things by myself and it didn't seem to bother me. Nor do I think that is going to change either, because the system works very well for me.

I can feel the edge of the holiday season approaching. Soon things will start to accelerate even though there is less and less daylight each day. I'm not sure what I want to accomplish before the end of the year. There are some money matters that I want to straighten out, but for the most part I just want to save for my trip to Europe next year. I'm done with traveling this year. Instead of one more long vacation I opted for a few extended weekends in October. Then with Thanksgiving and Christmas breaking up the last two months of the year, I should be okay.

Beyond seeing a play on the twenty-ninth, the month of October is completely open for me. I imagine that some people are building toward Halloween, but anyone that knows me knows that I think that Halloween is asinine. It does absolutely nothing for me and I try to ignore it. Thanksgiving and Christmas are holidays, but Halloween is just an excuse to get drunk.

 
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