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restoration at last Without much effort on my part, I did end up sleeping for most of yesterday which is understandable considering how much I really needed it. Being sick for the past few days had worn me down much more than I thought and I let my body get some of what it wanted. The downside of this was that none of the sleep that I got was for very long or very refreshing. Each time I fell asleep it was for a three or four hour chunk of time and when I woke I didn't feel any better. On the other hand, it must have been enough, because today I felt the best that I have in days. It took almost the whole day to get the full effect, but by night I was almost healthy again. The simple ability to breathe and being able to think about something other than the inside of my head had both been returned to me. Now with any luck I'll be able to write an entry with more than one paragraph to it. Despite my recent cold, I think that I feel the best that I have all year. Everything seems to be working for me now. My stress level is low and I can't think of anything that has truly been bothering me. Oh, they have yet to put the handrails back up in my stairwell, but that is so minor. This has to be the most relaxed that I have felt in a long time and I like it this way. I might go so far as to say that I am content. Things make sense to me now. Maybe this sudden calm is due to my impending birthday. Maybe I feel the need to have everything come together now so that I can move forward with my life.
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