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like nothing happened After doing my laundry in the morning, I let the rest of Monday be a day of slacking for me. It wasn't my original plan, but it was probably for the best. Sometimes doing nothing is the best course of action to follow. ... I thought some more about what that woman had said to me about settling down and it reminded me of something else. Married people seem to feel that single people aren't quite as far along the maturity ladder as they might be and I resent that implication. It smacks of arrogance and ignorance at the same time and I usually mute anything else that they might say to me. Five years ago I was busy playing house with an old girlfriend. I've done daycare. I've done changing diapers. I've done the daily arguments with someone who said that they loved me more than anything else. I've given my life over to someone else. Then I changed and so did my life. To put it bluntly no one else has lived my life so I don't feel that they have any cause or right to judge my actions. My life may not be weighed down with married or family life problems, but don't tell me that everything in my life is happy go lucky. Besides I wasn't the one who made these people get married or have children. It was their choice and they have to deal with it not me. I can not stand martyrs and the whole world seems to be full of them. Look at me and see what I can endure. Go away. Go far far away. As haughty as this might sound, most of my college educated relatives didn't get married until they were in their thirties. So if I'm to follow their example, then I am right on track. End of rant. ... Most of what I wrote above does seem slightly overwrought, but it did cross my mind for a time. I'm just not in any hurry to repeat any past mistakes. I also find it sad that I can refer to former lovers as mistakes. I find that to be very very sad, but people do it all of the time. Mistakes probably isn't the best word. The generic phrase of life experience sounds so much nicer. I also want to mention that I didn't say any of this to the woman on the phone. All that I said was that I don't know when I'll settle down, which is still true and far less abrasive.
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