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class dismissed Ten in the morning and I should be sleeping now, but I want to talk about yesterday before it all gets lost. Nothing tragic or horrible happened, but there was still some sadness in it. Yesterday ended up being my last class for the semester, but it wasn't supposed to be that way. Then again it wasn't a complete surprise either. About half way through the hour most of the people in class seemed as though they would rather be somewhere else and I think that the professor was ready to give up. Her fatal mistake had been that none of what we were discussing was going to be graded which meant that there wasn't any real incentive to care. So that one mistake coupled with the end of the semester was the quickest way for her to lose their attention. In the end she simply said that we didn't need to come back on Thursday. She didn't say it in an angry or dejected tone, but I could still sense a mild amount of frustration in her voice. Knowing that no one cares to listen to what you have to say is one of the worst feelings that I know. ... All that I have left to do is email my final paper to her on Thursday and I am free. The sad part is that I will miss going to class. It may have cut into my sleep, but it also gave me much needed exposure to new people. Perhaps that sounds sad, but my social life had really shrunk over the past year or two. I simply stopped looking to be with other people and focused on myself. School changed that mindset and it felt good to talk with people about things other than work. I'm not saying that I formed life long friendships with the people in my class, but it did get me out of the social hole that I had made for myself. More than likely I won't see any of those people again unless they happen to be in the same class that I am taking next semester. ... My coworker chided me for not making a better attempt with J Crew girl, but that was before I told him that she'll be in my class next semester. As to what may or may not happen then, I can't say. At the very least we'll have something in common when we next see each other. Actually if I do see anyone again, it'll probably be my buddy Party Girl. She was absent from class and I took it upon myself to let her know that class had been cancelled for Thursday. She was happy to know that I cared and proceeded to explain why she hadn't been there. It seems that another professor had made her cry earlier in the morning. It was the same professor whose papers she had to write when I asked her to see a play with me. I said that I still owed her a play and I have a feeling that we'll probably get together sometime after the holidays. ... Obviously a renewed social life wasn't my primary reason for going back to school this fall. Ultimately I am hoping to make a career shift sometime in the near future and my being back in school will help me make that transition. Meeting people like J Crew girl and Party Girl were just some great fringe benefits. ... Monday gave us thirteen inches of snow. Tuesday heralded the triumphant return of the sun so that we could see our new winter landscape in all of its blinding white glory. Today was a return to overcast skies and some more light snow. All of this is very typical of winter in Wisconsin and I wouldn't have it any other way.
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