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some personal time Today for the first time in days if not weeks I finally let myself relax. I forgot about everything that has been bothering me lately. Two weekends in a row were devoted to studying for an exam that I failed both times and I had had enough. I didn't mention it in the entry, but I almost went nova yesterday. I nearly snapped and I realized that I needed to do something that would make me happy. Yesterday it also occured to me that I hadn't seen a movie in weeks. Nor had I read anything that wasn't related to either work or school. I needed to do something for me. I needed to be free and do something fun. I'm not abandoning my desire to move ahead with my career, but I think that I need some time away from the material. I mean I started to dream about the exam, which is never a good sign. It had become more of a weight than anything else. A week or so away from it will probably be better for me than continually pushing myself until I hate the exam and my job. Besides seeing my whole world shrink down to those two things really bothered me and I knew that it had to stop. ... Seeing snow outside my window when I woke was a surprise. It wasn't in the last weather forecast that I had heard.
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