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the morning talks Most of what I wanted to say yesterday came out even more muddled than it usually does here and I want to try just one more time. To quickly paraphrase what I wrote, people often like to complain about their job and their life and I'm no exception. Now this doesn't mean that I hate my life. No, that isn't what I was trying to say at all. Quite honestly I really do like my life. There may be some flaws, but it still works for me. I also truly believe that it gets better with each year. It isn't as though I am longing for the past or regretting what I have done. Now my version of life probably wouldn't work for most people, but that isn't my concern. So I don't have a job where I travel somewhere new every other month. So what if I don't work for myself. At least I have a job that lets me do what I want in my free time. Plus it isn't all consuming nor is it that stressful. Now is it something that I want to do for the rest of my life. The answer would be no. ... Before I left work, I spent six hours talking with Ann this morning. As soon as she came through the door, I knew that something must have happened during the night, because she wasn't herself. An hour passed before she finally told me the reason why, but I didn't mind waiting. I knew that today was going to be a long day for her and at the very least I wanted her to be in a good mood before I went home. I'll be the first to admit that I am overly protective of her and as a result most of our conversations get heavily edited here. The way that I see it, her life is her concern and I don't feel the need to relay each and every detail of it here. ... Last Friday morning Donna had invited to me to a small gathering that was going to happen this afternoon. I think that she could tell that I wasn't that interested, but I'm not sure if she understood why. Simply put Sunday afternoon is not the best time of the day for me. All that I want to do on a Sunday afternoon is sleep. I might have missed out on a small social gathering, but I still had my time with Ann which is more important to me. When it comes to social activities I am much more of a one on one person than someone who can move through a crowd.
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