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some changes happen Yes, I am still alive. I've just been very busy for the past few days and I haven't been sure how much I want to talk about what has been going on in my life. No doubt it shouldn't come as too much of a surprise that the majority of the past three days were spent with Her. Yes, I still don't feel comfortable giving her an alias and or nickname. Actually I just want to keep her all to myself, because I don't want to betray her trust by talking about her here. I care about her that much. Now this doesn't mean that the journal will go away, but it might have a slightly different tone soon. I can't say yet what exactly is going to happen. I mean there are still things that I want to talk about here so that I can remember them in the future. On the other hand I can't say how much I enjoy spending hours talking with Her without creating a mental crisis for me. I have too think about it some more before I can reach some kind of decision. Maybe this all sounds a bit odd, but then again I never said that I was average. ... I just noticed that a year ago I arrived in London for the very first time in my life. Without a doubt going there is something that I will never forget and I know that I'll go back sometime. As I have said before seeing the world is one of the few things in the world that truly makes me happy. ... Speaking of being happy, spending time with Her definitely makes me happy. As silly as it sounds I can be myself and she likes me that way. So often when I was with my last girlfriend I just couldn't be all of me. I was more of a subdued version keeping parts of my personality in check. Maybe that sounds odd, but it was true. For example my last girlfriend did not get my humor at all so I just sort of stopped trying to be funny. ... Even with the heat wave that has been smothering Wisconsin lately, I decided to go for a bike ride today and it felt good. True, I didn't go that far and that was probably a good thing, because I nearly collapsed when I got back home. The heat must have affected me more than I thought. I might have to try again tomorrow.
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