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no love here I'll be the first to admit that I have probably been more acidic than usual lately and I know why. Having someone that I thought that I knew tell me the female equivalent of I'll call you does take some mental adjustment. The last time that a woman handed me the line that she was too busy to be in a relationship or that she wasn't ready to see anyone now was when I was an undergraduate eight years ago. I was more willing to believe it then than I am now. Oh, she was never the best person at time management, but if I gave that excuse to a woman she would never believe me. I mean I am very busy with work, school and wanting to do things for myself, but I did my best to see her when I could. Something else must have changed, but I doubt that she will ever tell me. Women love to keep secrets. Besides three unreturned telephone calls sends a loud message my way as well. Actually I am surprised at the amount of mental anguish that I have devoted to what she said. Even worse she said it in an email. Sigh. So much for face to face communication. Run and hide. What happened to women being better communicators? Maybe I sound confrontational, but what happened to the truth? Now however I think that I can say that I have worked it through my system. I mean my life certainly has not come to an end and I have started to wonder if she had more problems than she told me. If she did then they would have become my problems in time. I may never know. Maybe she was trying to spare me. What I do know is that I have no interest nor time to start seeing anyone else this year. It isn't going to happen. Personally I want to get through the holidays and into the next year as soon as possible. Seeing someone would only complicate matters and I doubt that many people start seeing someone during the crush of the holidays anyway. Thankfully I will be getting more than one bonus for working both Thanksgiving and Christmas this year. I have this feeling that everything that I just said sounds either horribly bitter or comes across as an odd form of rationalization. One thing is true though. I feel better having said it. ... After two days of clear blue skies, clouds were everywhere when I drove home from work this morning. Instead of August it finally looked and felt like November in Wisconsin. One has to wonder when we'll see snow in the air. It has to be coming and people will certainly want it when Christmas rolls around. Fog was settling over the neighborhood, when I walked out to get the mail early this evening. Obviously there wouldn't be any sign of the aurora tonight. Talking with people at work it seems as though I was the only person that managed to see it on Monday night. Knowing that small detail made me feel fortunate. ... If I had to summarize, I would have to say that most of last week was devoted to just making it back to work and school. There wasn't much time to adjust to my new place. Now however I am able to enjoy what really is mine. Simple things like being able to do a load of laundry while I am online is great. Rather than having to drive somewhere to do laundry I can stay home and do a couple of other things at the same time. I love it.
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