Food and Family

I decided to start the entry a little earlier today. Since I don't have to work today and the dinner doesn't start until this afternoon, I have time to write.

I'm a little embarassed about my outburst yesterday at work. It really wasn't professional, but I guess that I needed to vent. Work is fine for now, but I do need more.

The job doesn't really reflect who I am. Then does a job have to reflect a person's personality. Maybe I shouldn't buy into the concept that your job defines who you are as a person. Your work is your life and so on.

I am always amazed by those people who say that they love their jobs. Or the people who say that they knew what they wanted to do ever since they were little. They have everything planned in advance. They knew where they were going from such and such an age. There was a calling or something.

Me, I just move from here to there, which I think makes the title of this journal very appropriate. Sometimes I know where I am going, but very little of it was completely planned ahead of time. There are too many variables in life. Besides I think that this minimizes the feeling of disappointment when something doesn't work the way I envisioned it.

My whole outlook on life is a combination of the people I have met and what I have been told to believe. I really don't want to get into a whole discussion of nature versus nurture. All that I am saying is that I am amalgam of different people.

Obviously my parents gave me my first set of values that I have changed and reshaped to meet my own personal taste. Another influence has come from each of the women that I have loved. They saw life differently than I did and I incorporated some of what they believed into myself. This is an ongoing process for me. I like to think that with each passing year I get to know myself better and become a better person. Or at least I hope that I do.

Thanksgiving was nice. I usually don't mind this holiday. No presents are involved and all that you have to do is show up and eat.

This year I spent the day with my dad's side of the family. Besides the aunts, uncles, cousins and grandparents it was just one of my sisters and myself, because the rest of my immediate family had gone to my mom's side of the family. This was done purely for geographical reasons. Both my sister and I work tomorrow and didn't want to deal with the five hour trip to my mom's side of the family.

Tomorrow at work I am on my own. The whole department is my responsibility, so I am hoping for a quiet day.