Tell Me Why

Yesterday's entry didn't quite capture everything that I wanted to say. It really should have been three times as long to be more effective, because the entry only relates a mood that was going through my mind for an hour or so. All sense of time was lost. Paragraphs were devoted to something that came and went within a short amount of time. What I mean is that I did not spend all day yesterday wondering about Brenda and me. I did manage to do some work. The key word here is some.

I am still trying to figure out what Brenda finds attractive in me. I would think that I am the furthest thing from what she wants in a man. She is very business oriented and I am not. As far as money goes, I do well enough so that I don't live like dirt, but it isn't a main focus of my life. From what I have heard about previous boyfriends, I am a new category for her.

In business terms, Brenda seems to be in demand. On Tuesday another major retail outlet in the area called her for an interview without her even looking for a job. So on Wednesday she spoke with them and it seemed to go well.

The amount that I have learned about retail in the past two weeks has confirmed what I already thought about that sector of the work force. Quite simply it is not for me. Oh, they always talk about the money, but I will never play the games and climb the ladder for someone. Besides my people skills would be the end of that career choice.

Being with Brenda seems very natural to me. As much as I might sound hesitant, the two of us do click. We are very good with one another. Sometimes I wish that she had a stronger liberal arts background, but business people tend to ignore those kinds of things. They want to make money.

The California trip will not be happening. Dan wants to go this weekend and I don't think that I have the cash to go just yet. I was planning on February. The third party in our adventure bailed out on him and now he wants to leave Saturday.