California Dan

Brenda had to be at work before me this morning, which was a first in the past two weeks. Usually she gets to sleep for another hour or two after I leave. Since I was awake, I went into work early. In my mind, two days of going in early balances out one day of being late despite what my boss might think. Just another example of how little I think of the business world. Money may make the world go round, but not inside my head.

Most of this morning was spent in a somewhat altered state without having used any drugs. Maybe it was a combination of sex and lack of sleep that brought on this state of mind or maybe Brenda is drugging me. I am joking here. I have no idea why I was feeling really detached from reality this morning. All that I know is that everything seemed strange and distant this morning at work or more so than usual. I did manage to do my job, but it was worlds away from me.

Then to enhance the effect even more, I immersed myself completely into OK Computer by Radiohead this morning. The music swam in my head. I was gone until Nick brought me back to this reality when he said that we had a meeting in five minutes.

I spoke with Dan, my would be travelling companion to California, this morning. His plan is to leave Saturday and hopefully find a job and place to live within three weeks. He has been planning this move for months now.

Dan also said that Brenda sounded like she might be the type of person that clings in a relationship. People keep warning me, but I don't seem to be listening. Its hard to see things objectively when you are at the center, but I think that everything will be okay. I will admit that if this falls through, I will take it very hard.

Dan is one of the few art friends from college that I have left. He was a photography major, part time musician and slightly annoying science fiction freak, when I knew him in college. Most of that description holds true to today. A prime example of his personality would be that he built a Stormtrooper costume by hand for Halloween last year. Other words commonly used to describe Dan include anti-social or misanthrope. Then there is the ever popular word weird.

The two of us have known one another for ten years, so I generally trust him when it comes to opinions of people. I have my small circle of close friends that I trust and Dan has been a part of that circle for years.

I've been devoting more time to writing an entry while I am at work. The only problem that I seem to have is transferring my entry to my computer at home. When I save it to a floppy, the translator on my Mac finds all of these extra characters from Microsoft Word that I have to eliminate before I can upload the page. My second option would be to email the entry from a pc at work that has access to the web. I can't use my pc, because they won't give me access at work for some reason. I wonder why.

In its own small way, my life is so twisted. Things from my past seem to keep coming around again. Today at work I added a new terminal to our database that surprised me. This new atm will be located at the same gas station where Tracy worked when we were living together. I recognized the name and address immediately.