East to West

The clouds were moving east to west this morning during my morning commute. Usually they move west to east across the sky. Yes, I was watching the sky as I drove. Watching the sky is therapeutic for me. I could say that it makes me realize that there are things beyond my control like the weather, but that might sound too cliche. Maybe I just identify too much with Linus from the Peanuts gang.

I decided to wait until next week to bring some plants with me to work. Why should I bring them in right before a three day weekend. I am sure that they would be just fine, but I can wait until Tuesday morning.

Last night Brenda asked me once again when I was moving in with her. Silence followed from me. She wants to know what scares me about living with her. More silence. This is not an easy question for me to answer.

Nick nominated himself the local morale officer at work. He declared today happy shirt day in celebration of the spring equinox. This meant that everyone was to dress in something like a Hawaiian shirt or something along those lines. There would be a contest and awards for the best shirt and so on.

Now I don't think I have to say how I reacted to this gesture. I can not stand these kinds of things. It has shades of Halloween which I also loathe with a passion. My refusal to participate is my personal choice and I think that my views and wishes should be respected. I do not need to lighten up, because I lighten up just fine outside of work. Ugh, just leave me alone. This kind of thing just makes me ill.

When I worked at the insurance company these kinds of activities seemed to come around much more frequently. Women who work in a office seem to thrive on these things. Yes, I know that was sexist, but women like that do exist. There is always the woman who has to plan all sorts of activities to encourage team spirit and other kinds of drivel.

Gretchen was surprised at my public displays of affection when Brenda and I were over by her place a few weeks back. Yes, I do kiss and touch Brenda quite often. Brenda should realize how much I do for her. She herself has said that I have a lot of defenses in place and this is not something I deny. This journal started with me complaining about Tracy and my dislike of being involved with someone in general. Trust is not something that comes easily.

The three day weekend starts tonight and I am going to enjoy every moment of it. This is the first Monday that I have taken off here all year. This is the first Monday that I have taken since I have been in this department which was over six months ago.

I apologize for the poorly written entry. The contest thing really rubbed me wrong and pretty much ruined the day for me. It was meant to have the opposite effect.

I wanted to get poetic about the clouds, but my creative mood was crushed by all of the happy shirt talk.