Lack of Words

I'm not sure why I have been so laconic lately. Yes, laconic is my special word for the day, but I digress. The short entries aren't intentional I just seem to be having a hard time writing. Most of my life has remained the same so I'm not sure why I should have such a hard time writing about it. Usually I am able to squeeze something out of a boring day.

The short entries are if anything indicative of my mood. There are days when I just do not feel like talking and it comes through in the journal. Some might say that this journal is not talking, but writing. I, however, see it as a combination of me talking to myself and the unseen audience. Its me being Hamlet for a few moments and I love it. Its my version of the Real World minus the hip music in the background.

My search for the pagan book was done with the intention of using it as a daily addition to the journal. It was going to be an enhancement. Some people list what book they are reading or what music that they are listening to for the day and I felt that I should do something different and slightly more informative. True, it isn't as personal, but it might be interesting. Besides I'll take my education wherever I can get it.

I'm a little disappointed with myself, because I've started to drink caffeine again. Oh, I know that its not the worst drug in the world, but I'm still not overly fond of it. Other people love the stuff and say that they couldn't get through the day without it. I, however, am very sensitive to the effect that drugs have on my system and caffeine is no exception.

Caffeine gives me all of the classical side effects as soon as it enters my system. I get hyper and jittery whenever I drink something with caffeine in it. Very seldom is it an energy rush for me, its more of an upset stomach feeling after I drink too much soda. I swear that I can feel it eating through the lining of my stomach. Most of my caffeine comes from soda, because the taste of coffee doesn't appeal to me. Those coffee and milk drinks by Starbucks are the exception to the rule though. Maybe I should just put massive amounts of sugar in a cup of coffee and then guzzle it down.