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Simply Saturday The moon hovered low near the horizon as I drove to work last night. An optical illusion made it seem bigger than when it was higher in the sky. The physics behind this escape me at the moment, but I know that there is a scientific explanation for it. I was really getting depressed yesterday. Nothing that I usually do to keep me busy was making me happy. I can't stay online forever despite what some people might think and once again I couldn't seem to get into a book. I didn't even bother with television and I couldn't think of anything that I wanted to rent. Doing productive things like sorting through bills or cleaning didn't sound appealing either. I just wanted to have some fun or do something different, but I couldn't think of anything. The holidays still haven't gotten to me yet. Then again I still believe that holidays are geared more toward children. People want to recreate what they remember growing up as a child for their children. They want to create an illusion for their children to cherish. So much effort is put into this production, but it doesn't always work. Expectations get set too high and are missed. At the moment I could completely forget about Christmas. My trip in January seems more important to me. Part of me tried to imagine Brenda eating Thanksgiving dinner with my father's side of the family. It really isn't that big of an event and Brenda could see that I talk as much to my relatives as I did to hers. They are nice enough people, but sometimes I just don't have anything to say to them. Family gossip can only hold my interest for so long. I imagine that Brenda is busy with the retail world in the midst of the holiday shopping frenzy. I still don't see the rewards of a job where people are constantly complaining and money is the source of happiness. Later in the evening. I feel like reading again.
written input at the moment: The Land Remembers - Ben Logan
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