Michelangelo sibyl from the Sistine Chapel

 

just let it go

I knew that something unpleasant would be waiting for me when I got to work last night, because I had lost my temper last week Friday and left a terse voicemail with my boss. Part of me regretted having sent it, but at the time it seemed like a good idea. He had insulted me in a voicemail and I replied with heavy sarcasm and barely controlled anger. So when I got to work I wasn't surprised to see that he had responded to my outburst with three voicemails of his own. The anger slowly decreased with each successive voicemail that he sent me.

Now four days later it didn't seem nearly as important and I just wanted to forget about it and hoped that he would do the same. Thankfully when we spoke face to face in the morning the matter was casually brushed aside. Both of us had some more time to think about what had been said and the initial problem had been resolved. Somewhere along the line we both realized that emotions had been blown out of proportion through some misinterpretation.

I do seem to be getting better at just letting things go. Normally I am one to let things fester for a long period of time. I go over the same events time and time again until my anger becomes completely irrational. Now I don't see that much reason to do that any more. It never solves anything and I regret all of the time that I wasted.

Through a combination of over the counter medication and time, my eyes and nose are doing much better today. All of those little pills and capsules in bottles are a mystery to me and I try to avoid them as much as possible. It all seems too simple of a solution to me. So many people take them for granted and devour them on a daily basis without thinking. I, however, often wonder who first figured out that if you chewed on this root it would make this pain go away. It had to be a trial and error process with some nasty results.

I am going to miss working with the second shift guy who is leaving. Of the people in the department, he was the one that I worked the most with on a daily basis and part of me envies his freedom. He said that I could get a job at where he is going if I wanted, but for now I am going to stay where I am. Maybe a year from now I might take him up on that offer.

 
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