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more groaning Well. Yesterday certainly came across as rather pathetic. Let us hope that today will be far more constructive. Time for a self hug here. Okay. All better now. Once more unto the breach and all of that other nonsense that I love so dearly. Despite the entry from yesterday, I still think that my life is at a much better point than it was at a year ago. Of course this implies that I have some clearly defined goal in mind, but I don't. What I mean to say is that I feel better about how I see the world. Maybe I sound like a bit of a freak here or maybe an outsider. The more elaborate noun of choice would be misanthrope, but I would disagree. I think that I understand people very well. I just don't need to be surrounded by them. I can and often do function as an individual. Now one should notice that I never said that I didn't like people. I just don't crave company as much as other people. There is a distinction in there somewhere. At work this morning, it was Kelly and I at the phones. She is our resident overachiever and at times my foil. Most people would describe her as bright, attractive and very motivated. None of this is untrue, but I think that I am one of the few that isn't swayed by her. To be honest something about her really bothers me. Then to compound the matter there are the times when we subtly taunt one another and no, I do not think that this is anything sexual either. I am definitely not her type and I really have no interest in her either. What causes the conflict is our approach to work. Hyper versus relaxed. Sincere versus casual. For me what makes work interesting is the human dynamics. Oh, the idea of jamming massive amounts of data through wires also has a slight appeal, but watching my coworkers bob and weave around each other is the best. Each night this small cross section of humanity gathers in a room for supposedly one common purpose. I need to stop for the day, because this just isn't happening.
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