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questions and answers Everything is so much more calm now than it was at one this morning. For the second night in a row work sent fits through my system. Within the first hour of being at work I had yet another problem thrown at me that was handled poorly. This time was more frustrating than the first though. After being given some sketchy details from one manager, I was asked to solve the problem while he and a second manager stood and watched. Now I can't speak for other people, but having two people stand by and watch as I work does not help my concentration level at all. Then it happened. I lost it. I put the phone on hold and pounded the top of the counter as hard as I could. Of course this sudden outburst caused both managers to leave the room and that eased the tension level ever so slightly. Then once they were out of the room I muddled through the problem the best that I could. Two more fists pounds and about a few minutes worth of swearing on my part later, I started to feel better. A small part of me regrets that I lost control, but I know that my anger has been building lately and something had to give and it did. I just had to let someone know how completely frustrated I felt at that moment. In hindsight it may not have been the best thing to do, but I truly felt as though I had been wronged and I was going to make my feelings known. Once again I felt as though I had been handed something that I was poorly trained to handle and I don't like being set up to fail. I guess that I can accept the problem, but having people idlely stand by and watch me is not something that I will tolerate. Quite simply if someone is not helping me, there is no reason for them to be there. I don't need a crowd when I am trying to think. I am not a street performer with a collection hat in front of me. Now I have to wonder if two of my coworkers think that I am insane. Thankfully I won't see either of them until Tuesday and hopefully by that time everything will be forgotten.
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