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stress control habits Class went well yesterday afternoon and I handed in my thesis statement feeling confident that I had come up with something worthwhile. As to whether or not the professor agrees has yet to be seen. After class outside, Party Girl wished me a happy thanksgiving and I did the same to her. There wasn't any more time for conversation since I was busy talking with the professor about a film version of the book that we had been discussing. Heart of Darkness. Apocalypse Now. The same but not the same. The film could not have existed without the book. Not sure if she values my opinion or not. To travel up a river. To take a journey. Self-discovery. Want. Desire. Inner understanding. Imperialism. Amoral. Kurtz. ... Everything was so calm yesterday until I went in to work. Then the moment that I walked into that room it all changed and I think that I know the reason behind this trend. I don't have a transition phase between those two worlds. For me they are so removed from each another that stepping from one into the other is always a shock for me. ... So many of the books that I've read for the class are full of sad people. Clarissa Dalloway. Marlow the sailor. People that seem detached from the world around them. Modern people. Yet I can relate to most if not all of them. People amaze me and confuse me at the same time. Last night at work was filled with the usual small daily encounters that I dwell on for far too long. I playback what was said between the other person and myself. I analyze my reaction and wonder if I could have done it differently if not better. ... I don't think that it is any secret that I want to write a book. Most English majors feel the same way. It wouldn't have to be a big book. It wouldn't have to be a bestseller and it wouldn't. What I talk about isn't that universal. I love words. I admire people that can use them properly. Quiet yet powerful. Something that stays with me long after I have closed the book or turned the page. I ramble when I should be sleeping, but there are so many thoughts going through my head right now. I have to share or at least put some of them into words. ... Before I left work this morning, Donna came in for a visit. I think that the last time that we spoke was when we went out as a group for food and drinks. She was trying to convince me to go to the company Christmas party. I have no plans to go. ... Unbreakable. I highly recommend seeing it. Bruce Willis and Samuel L. Jackson do some quality work, but I must confess that the subject matter was something dear to me.
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