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two years gone Ann is back to studying for a certification and I hope that that works out for her. As for me I am more concerned about getting some more paperwork filed for school. Late Friday night Saturday morning, I found out my grade. I got an A-. It felt good to have some kind of validation for everything that I had done since the beginning of September. Now I need to keep that momentum going through the rest of the year. After Ann went home for the night I started to think about what I had been doing at my job for the past two years. Actually I started to wonder if I could have done more during that time, not that I could change any of it now. The past is in the past. When I first started over two years ago, I had just stopped seeing Brenda and having a new job gave my mind something else to focus on instead of her. Then there was the sheer novelty of the job itself. This was quickly followed by a trip to California for the first time. Generally speaking the first four or five months working at my current job went by pretty quickly. I think that the tedium probably set in somewhere after the initial six months. Then there was the former second shift guy whining about the company at that time. Listening to him didn't help my morale, but I managed to make a weeklong escape to Canada to keep me happy. Soon the second shift guy was replaced with the hyper motivated student who was determined to make his way up through the company. His outbursts and running commentary coupled with a remodeling of the building kept my attention through the end of my first year and the beginning of the second year. Then the planning for Europe took over and almost completely put any thoughts about work out of my mind. Job advancement could wait until after I saw the world. Then there was my getting to know Ann and my triumph return to school to get me through the remainder of this year. Looking back it all seems a little strange, but it wasn't that I lacked ambition while I was here. There were various changes in the department including both personnel and equipment, but I think that most of my energy was going somewhere else. I had left a job where I had a large amount of responsibility and came here to have one with much less at a higher salary. I couldn't have asked for anything more in the beginning. Then there was the fact that I wanted to have fun in life again. I had just ended an almost year long relationship that made me more miserable than I knew I could possibly be. Through being with her I learned that having someone being around me twenty-four by seven is not good for me. I need some time by myself. In an age where people like to set goals for themselves and spout self-help rhetoric almost non-stop, all that I can say is that I can only see six months into the future. Anything beyond this coming July is wide open for me. By then I'll have another semester of school completed and should be back from Australia. The next step would be a new job. ... Everything that I just said sounds so negative, but I never intend for it to be that way. I mean I do other things besides whine or rant. Why just last night Nicole and I sang hole in the washtub together.
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