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saturday rolls along Somehow I managed to waste the entire first half of the day, which I can't really explain either. Yesterday I had made a complete adjustment to a first shift schedule, yet I did absolutely nothing productive this morning. It didn't matter that I went to sleep at around midnight and woke up at six this morning. I still didn't do anything, but mope around the house. I didn't study for my exam. I didn't read the assignment for my other class, which I missed this week because I was at this other class that work paid for me to attend. I didn't even watch television. I didn't do anything except watch the clock slowly tick by. Well, I did do one thing, but it certainly wasn't something that I needed to do. Sigh. Complaining about those lost hours won't bring them back, but I hate starting a day that way and it definitely sets the tone for the rest of it. I didn't have to be anywhere or do anything and I just sort of fell into a hole of my own creation for about four hours. Somehow not having any concrete plans for the day made it that much easier to do nothing. Thankfully the afternoon went much better than the morning. ... When I did finally venture out into the world, I started to realize that I wasn't missing that much. Black topped streets were white from all of the salt and most of the cars using them were a few shades lighter as well. My poor neglected car hasn't been washed since last October or maybe some time last summer. I don't remember anymore. February is firmly stuck in the middle of what I call the ugly part of winter. The snow that we have on the ground is more ice than snow and is anything but white in color. When I was looking back at the February entries from last year almost all of them were very short in length so there must be something about this time of year that bothers me. ... One thing did make me smile this afternoon. After some grocery shopping I picked up the photos that I took of Nicole on her birthday. Quite a few of them are of her turning away or trying to hide, but I did get her to pose for a few and they do capture some of her charm. As I was taking her picture she kept saying that I was trying to steal her soul, but that didn't stop me. I even let her take a few of me and I am just as camera shy as her.
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