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spring semester concerns Yesterday was a sluggish one for me which probably explains why I logged somewhere near seven hours in front of the television. That was not my intention when the day started, but somehow it ended up that way. At least some of what I watched was educational. I now know more about the shady life that Christopher Marlowe led and I also have a better mental picture of Tanzania and Zanzibar. As to what I will do with these pieces of knowledge is beyond me, but I have them firmly stored away in my brain for future reference. I also feel that I should mention that this was not seven hours all in a row, I did do other minor chores during the day such as venturing out to buy groceries. Okay. Now I feel slightly better about having spent that much time on the couch. ... With the return of the sun for the first time in days, so returned a positive frame of mind. Once that was back so was my motivation to do something other than just lounging on the couch watching the hours slip away. With little effort on my part I had done more by noon than I had all day yesterday. One of my goals for this three day weekend was to decide what I wanted to do about school since the class that I needed was cancelled. I think that I mentioned that I found this out just this Monday and this did not make me happy. Of the three classes that I need to complete the program only one was being offered and now that too has been taken away from me. Maybe this wouldn’t bother other people, but it definitely bothers me. For the past two years I’ve relied on school for a number of things. School is what kept me sane from the inanity of my job. Not only did it keep me sane, but hopefully in the end it should give me a means of escape from my job into something that will mean more to me. Then as an added bonus school gave me a social outlet. Now all three of those options and or benefits have been put on hold until September. I could just not take anything until the fall and enjoy my free time, which is what my parents suggest that I do. They think that I might need a break and part of me can see their point. Instead of driving to class, I could get the full benefit of my three day weekends and ease up on my weekly gas mileage. This past semester a week of school added two hundred miles to my car and also increased my trips to the gas pump. Both of those problems would be gone if I could hold up until September. Another benefit of not going to school this semester would be the money that I would save in tuition. That extra money could go either towards a vacation or the fall semester. Even though there are benefits to taking a break from school I have this dread of getting more and more depressed at my job. Whenever things got slow at work I'd work on homework from class. To me it was an ideal arrangement and with my new schedule I wouldn't be pushing myself as hard in terms of sleep. Now that the spring semester may not be happening for me, none of that matters anymore or at least not until September. One of the most obvious options would be to just take a class in something else that interests me even though it won't count towards my program. I'd still get the benefit of school and keep my world from shrinking down to just my job. I guess things wouldn't be so bad if I didn't see where I work as being a failure on my part. The pay is acceptable and so are the hours, but I always feel as though I am wasting my life there. If I could shake that feeling, then things would be fine. I don't see that happening any time soon though. |