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another rushed weekend It's quarter after seven at night and I have less than two hours before I have to go to work. Before I leave my house for the night, I need to get some things in order. Obviously some of those things would be a shower and packing a lunch, but I also need a moment or two to sort through all of the thoughts going through my head, which is what I try to do here. Sadly I seem to be slipping in that department. More and more I seem to be accelerating towards something vaguely important that eludes me and I don't like living that way. Quite honestly twenty first century life doesn't always suit me or at the very least I need more down time than other people seem to need. It hasn't been very busy since I woke up late this afternoon, but I still need time to adjust to the world of work again. In the space of three days I seem to be able to forget everything about that place and then I find myself stuck there for four days that often feel so much longer to me. What makes those days seem so long is all of the complaining that I hear while I am there. Yes, I will be the first to admit that I too like to whine about my job, but when I am away from there I don't waste any of my time thinking about that place. It doesn't exist anymore. Then suddenly I find myself trapped there again with the sad cycle starting back at the beginning as though I had never made it to the end when I left. Sigh. For me decompressing keeps me sane. What I mean is that I need time to read. I need time to just sit and stare out the window. Constant motion does not make me happy. Sitting still works wonders for me and so does writing when I get around to doing it. Actually what I really want to do is start painting again even though I have said that many things before. I just got done watching a taped episode of ER from Thursday. A mother immolated herself, Bob Newhart portrayed a man going blind and Linda Cardellini from Freaks and Geeks joined the cast. NBC has been very good to her. Watching the episode didn't help me relax. Maybe I should have read a book instead. |