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rain soaked sunday With the sun nowhere to be seen this morning, I should have slept well today, but I didn't. When I woke I felt more lost than I have in a while and just wanted to stay in bed. That wasn't an option though. I wasn't going to say it because it sounds dumb even to me, but I will anyway. I can't believe that the year is almost over. Okay, in an effort to make me appear like less of a moron, I knew that it was coming, but in my mind it seemed further away. Why this should bother me, I don't know. It wasn't as though I had all of these plans that I wanted to get done before the end of the year, but I almost feel as though time is slipping away from me again. Whenever that happens, I start to get frustrated with myself and wonder what I am doing wrong. New Year's Eve hasn't been that important of a social event to me for years. As far as I am concerned it's just a day on the calendar going from one month to another, but it does still feel strange when it comes around and I wasn't expecting it so soon. The odd feeling probably has more to do with the fact that I haven't had much time to think this past week because of the all-consuming force of Christmas. That sudden influx of non-stop activity left little time for myself before I went back to work and that always bothers me. Not writing didn't help either. |