One More Day

When I woke up late this morning, I should have known that today was going to be a bad day.

My car insurance company called me at work this morning. Ugh. I just want it all to end. The ten minute conversation sent me into a fit of rage that lasted an hour. The questions and the bullshit just annoys me to no end. Its sad how a woman who I spoke with for about ten minutes and is hundreds of miles away can mess with my life. Just leave me alone.

Actually I am very calm now and this morning almost seems like a distant memory. If I had written the entry in the morning, it would have been filled with swearing the entire length of the page. Now I really don't feel the need to do that anymore.

I ran into a woman who I used to work with last year at the grocery store tonight. What do you think was one of the first questions that she asked me?

Are you seeing anyone?

This really didn't surprise me, I just thought that it was interesting.

Oh, I think about it now and again, but my life keeps on going even though I am not dating anyone. I seem to be able to function all by myself.

Now I really don't feel like wallowing in self pity, but I just can't imagine dating anyone right now. I think that I have abandoned most of my emotional baggage from last year, so that wouldn't be a problem. Its just I can't see myself as a date person. Its not me.

The whole concept of a date is so foreign to me. Tracy and I just seemed to fall into one another when we met. The girlfriend before her was from my college days, which meant that we met in class. We just started to hang out with each other after class and it grew from there. So dating was never really part of me, not even in high school. I guess that this means I am socially inept. Oh, well, life goes on.

Yes, if you read between the lines, I have only had two girlfriends in the past four years. Either this makes me mister long term commitment or really pathetic. I guess that it all depends on your point of view.

One more day and then its Thanksgiving. I almost feel festive for some reason. The propaganda on television is starting to addle my mind I guess.