Speakers

I spent part of the morning trying to understand what happened between Brenda and me last night. A sudden dose of reality seemed to creep into our little world. Something I had said and done was taken the wrong way. Then I spent the next twenty mintues trying to assure her that she misunderstood me.

Some of my friends are worried that I am going to get hurt, because I have a long history of intercepting women on the rebound. Brenda on the other hand was worried about being hurt by me. So here I am wondering, if it will be back to normal tonight. Arguing in the late hours of the night is not healthy for me. Thankfully, we didn't go to sleep angry at one another and everything seemed to be better in the morning

There are times that I blame myself, but maybe I just make too much of something that should be forgotten. Actually I thought that Brenda was talking about some things far too early in our relationship. Questions were asked that I couldn't answer without being further cross examined. Words held far too much meaning in those quiet moments.

Yes, I know that I couldn't be more vague, but I don't think that it would be fair to tell the story without her having her say. Some people might even know what I am talking about because it happened to them once.

She is in management, which bothers me at times due to all of the lies that I have been told by managers. I prefer the kind of boss who is openly antagonistic rather than one who tries to be your friend and isn't. Mind games really irritate me.

I tease her about laying down the law and so on, but she also takes a fair amount of crap from the customers. If I ever saw a customer verbally chewing her out, I am sure that I would want to beat the crap out of the moron.

Today at work, I was done with everything that I needed to do by noon. I jokingly asked Nick and Tony if I could go home. The answer was no of course.

Since I had so little to do this afternoon, I made my way to a cube where I know there is internet access and logged on for about an hour under the premise that I was looking for something work related. That search lasted for about twenty minutes. Soon I moved on to the online journals which mean so much more to me.

Brenda just called. She is coming home with a new sound system tonight and wants me to help her set it up.

All is well again.

Its nice to have this time to myself after work though. I need my own time.

The other two highlights of today include my merit increase in pay and a few more chapters of the Orson Welles biography.