That Detached Feeling

I should have known after I gave such a glowing review of Brenda yesterday, we would have a small falling out last night. The problem is that she wants me to move in with her and I hestitate every time that she asks me.

She asks over and over, why do I hesitate? Then she says that it isn't fair for me to compare her to Tracy. Soon after I start to feel like shit.

I know that moving in together is a big step. Its not something that I have never done before and we both know it. In her mind, I have been living there for the past month. This is partly true, because most of my clothes and bathroom stuff is there. We eat and sleep together.

She wants some kind of commitment from me, but I keep thinking that it has only been a month and something might go wrong. I guess I see myself as the cautious one here.

There is no denying the fact that she makes me very happy and when I am there I can see it working. She does everything for me and says that she will never hurt me. So where is the problem?

Sorry. I don't feel like writing tonight. So much is going through my mind and I am starting to wonder how much more I want to say.