Change in Mood

If I had to describe my overall mood lately the word that I would choose would be positive. Some people might find this silly, but its the way that I feel. Before I met Brenda I thought that if I ever started to see someone I would keep them out of the journal completely, but I can't seem to do that with Brenda. If I didn't mention her, there would be even larger gaps in my journal. However, if we start to live together, I am sure that she will quietly slide more into the background. My feeling is that she won't see the journal in as favorable a light as I do.

I'm trying to think what else has been on my mind besides Brenda. Well, I read an article about poet Ted Hughes in the New Yorker the other day. He is the poet laureate of Britain, but most people probably know him as the widower of Sylvia Plath. Until I read the article, I had never known that she was married. Then again I have never read The Bell Jar either.

Alan was talking about destroying the earlier parts of his journal, because when he went back and read them he was disappointed with what he had written. I can see his point, because I don't read what I have written for fear that I would wince as well. What I might have said yesterday may not apply to me today.

Lately I have felt more detached from the online journal community than usual. For instance, I really enjoyed reading about the Gus and Nancy meeting a little while back, but then again my time has been limited lately. I just seem to be here in my little corner of the web babbling away. I certainly was never a large player on the mailing list or of the journal community in general, but I did like to write to my peers within the group every so often. All that I do now is just read the journals.

Um, I am really hungry and I need to get going. I am so far behind schedule tonight, because I stayed late at work. If I moved in with Brenda, I wouldn't be running around so much.

One more thing before I go. I briefly thought of renaming the journal Humble Arrogance for some reason. Bad idea.