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Not worth it Today started early despite the fact that I went to bed after one. Six hours of sleep seems to be all that I need and that amount should be helpful when I make the transition back to third shift. I'll be sleeping while the vast majority of the local populace is toiling away. Of course the reverse will be true when I am working, but it really doesn't matter to me. I have never been one to follow a crowd. In fact I walk away from them most of the time. Some of the clouds from yesterday are still here, but the rain has been replaced by wind. When I say wind, I mean an almost steady stream of air. The leaves will be falling fast it this keeps up for a few days. I imagine that the colors are better further north and I just might take a drive that way next weekend. Most of the day was a steady brew of mixed emotions for me, so I accomplished very little. Thoughts of Brenda kept creeping through my head. Then when I spoke with her we were back to telemarketer mode. All of this is growing very old for me. I listened to her yell at me and tell me what I did wrong a few conversations back, but I have had enough at this point. I deserve more respect from her. She gets one more chance and then I am walking away. I might just give her some advice on her next relationship. She should try to see the other person's point of view in the relationship. If she did this they might last a little longer. Darcy I kept in touch for two years after we went our separate ways and then I wrote a very scathing letter to her. Oh, I can be cruel. A woman friend of mine told me years ago that no woman is worth begging. I just need to keep that thought in my mind. Besides someone else told me that life is too short to waste it on regret and self pity. In some ways today was a complete waste for me despite the nice weather.
audio input at the moment: New Order - Substance
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