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a time to whine Somtimes my body knows what is best for me and takes over from my mind. For most of the week my stress level has been slowly increasing and it has been taking its toll on me. I think that it all started with my sleep pattern getting completely disrupted earlier this week. I just haven't been myself and my body has been letting me know in subtle ways. Actually for most of my morning at work I was working on a rant for today. I wanted to just whine about things in general starting with my job. It seemed like it was a good time for me to whine again. Sure it might be immature, but sometimes it feels really good. Complaining can be so therapeutic at times and I thought that was what I needed to make me feel better. Before I could begin that rant, my body revolted in the form of oversleeping today. It was a sleep filled with tension inspired dream images. In one dream I was back in college and it was time for final exams. What made it even worse was that I wasn't ready. From what I can remember the exam was for a history class and the instructor kept going over what he expected from us on the final essay. None of what he was talking about was familiar to me at all. I looked around the classroom and didn't recognize a single person. I thought that this was strange since I had been in the class all semester. Then a small part of me realized that I was dreaming. The only way that I can explain this imagery is that some of the journals I read have been talking about exams lately. As for me I've been out of college for five years now. Then the dream landscape changed as it always does in that realm. I was sleeping in bed with someone and they were forcing me off of the bed. I was hugging the edge and trying to get some of the blankets back for myself. Brenda did this to me quite often. I guess that it was her way of getting back at me for snoring and keeping her awake. The combination of being on the edge of the bed and cold woke me up. In reality all of my blankets were lying on the floor next to the couch where I had been sleeping. Then when I was more awake I finally saw what time it was on the clock. I should have been awake two and a half hours earlier. My alarm never went off or if it did I never heard it. If I had woken up on time, I would have went and got a Christmas tree tonight. Yes, I am finally going to get one. Nick was going to pick me up and haul one home for me in his truck. I even bought a new tree stand and some lights this morning in preparation for tonight. Poor Nick called me three times and left messages on my machine. I didn't hear any of this though, because I turn the ringer off on my phone when I am sleeping. He said that it wasn't a problem when I called him and explained what happened. I guess that we'll go later this weekend.
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