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so tired Now that work has made the transition from frustration to mildly engaging, I can focus some of my energy elsewhere. I can actually think about other parts of my life. Uncertainty and insecurity came upon me when I was woken by the telephone this afternoon. I had forgotten to turn the ringer off and a telemarketer brought me back to the world much too soon. My mind was filled with questions and worries. I found it hard to believe that nearly a third of the year was over. Where did the time go? Did winter have that strong of a hold on me that I wasn't doing anything productive? What should I be doing with my life? What do I want to do next? One question after another assaulted me and I couldn't give any answers. Three hours of sleep does not make for clear thinking and I felt weak and helpless. Then as I slowly woke up the fears and worries subsided and I could think more calmly about things. All of the primal feelings fell back into my subconscious.
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