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the next step The lesson for the day is that I need to open a window before I fall asleep. With the recent spurt of warm weather, the lack of good insulation in my house is causing just as many problems as it did in cold weather. The most noticeable problems include a lack of fresh air and rising temperatures while I am trying to sleep. None of this is that much of a surprise. I just didn't expect it to happen this soon in the year. It wasn't a sweltering heat inside my house, but I was certainly uncomfortable. Stuffy would be a more accurate description. My nose was so dry that I found it hard to breathe and woke up at around noon, because of it. After some attempts at hydrating myself, I managed to get back to sleep two hours later. It took nearly three days, but I finally saw the end of the Russian science fiction movie I rented days ago and I'm not sure if it was worth my effort. The box had said that it was a cult favorite, but I'm not sure if I want to be part of that cult. It was strange, but not the kind of strange that I like in movies. I also doubt that I could have sat through the entire film in one sitting. It was over two hours long and I felt every minute of it when I was watching. The plot consisted of a limited number of characters stationed above an alien ocean that tapped into their subconscious. For years they had been trying to communicate with the alien ocean, but usually failed in the end. Now they may have made a breakthrough with the latest arrival at the station. The most that I can say is that Solaris must be their equivalent of 2001: A Space Odyssey. Both of them are from roughly the same time period and have limited special effects yet can leave a lasting impression. I divide my life into sections and tend to shift the focus of my attention from one area to the next. Somehow I seem to have entered into a lull where everything appears to be under control. My job is fine for now and the move crisis has settled down. Even more disturbing is that I am making decisions about my life a year from now. Maybe I should see that as a good sign or that I am maturing on some level. Whatever it means I should at least be able to relax and do other things that are more meaningful to me. So now that everything is in order do my thoughts turn to love? With my last girlfriend months behind me is it time for me to seek out a new girlfriend? There are times, when I think about it, but I haven't done anything to change my current situation. It just hasn't seemed that important to me. Of course it would be nice to have someone to hold and love, but I really don't want to complicate my life by trying to merge my desires with someone else's needs. I need to sort some things out before I become part of something that is more than just me.
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